Who DOES That?

I missed my beta appointment.

Sort of.

After transfer, I checked out and realized I didn't have any appointments scheduled for my beta.  By my math, it should have been the 31st since it was a 6 day blast.  When I went to check out, she had me schedule on the 4th because of the holiday.  So I figured that they had reduced hours for New Years Eve.  No biggie.  On Thursday I got a call asking what happened.  They were worried because it wasn't like me.  I told them I thought it was Monday.  Apparently I had two betas scheduled.  I was kicking myself because I could have just gotten it over with, but I didn't know about the Thursday visit.

So I promptly started peeing on things.  As of this morning I am absolutely not pregnant.  I'm truly okay.  It wasn't meant to be and my family is the way it is supposed to be.  I'm looking forward to getting all of this crap out of my system.  I want my body back.  I want to like it again and not be so damned mad at it all the time.

A new journey begins.