One Foot In Front Of The Other

First, an apology.  I know I have been a piss poor commenter lately.  I haven't even been a great reader lately, I'll admit.  The wind has really been knocked out of my sails, and when I'm feeling hopeless, I work my ass off.  I bury myself in work.  I don't even know where I came up with the pile of work I made for myself this week, but I got a lot of crap done!  It feels good to accomplish something I guess.

But you don't want to hear about that, you want to hear about the new RE!!!  He is yet to be blog-named.  I'm working on it.  The man sat with us for an hour.  AN HOUR, PEOPLE!  That's 60 whole minutes in one sitting.  I don't think Dr. Plethora has spent 60 cumulative minutes with us in the year we've been seeing him... at least not while I was conscious.

The new doc went through my file with us step by step.  He laughed about how great it is to work with infertility patients because you can say, "What was your AMH?" or "What dose did you start your last cycle with?" and we can shout out a number without thinking.  He talked about what he would have done differently in the past and what he would do in the future.  He gave us a number of theories on why this cycle didn't work.  I really appreciated how he talked with us about the possible impacts endometriosis has on infertility and what could have happened in our last cycle.  He made it really easy to understand... well... he made the fact that we don't understand hardly anything about endo easy to understand.  But at any rate, it's obvious that the lap has helped with embryo quality and we want to make hay and keep riding the coat-tails of a recently gutted gut.  Here's what he would have done differently:

• Added LH to my stims.  Apparently there is some research to support this.
• ICSI on round one - even though it didn't look like we needed it.
• Added some HCG to my trigger.
• Cultured to blasts.
• Added some HCG to the culture medium at transfer.  Really cool to learn about.

The most exciting thing about our FET is that they are going to thaw the embies, culture them for two more days, and then transfer.  If any are left, they will refreeze them!  I didn't know you could refreeze!

So we're going to move our little kidsicles to the new clinic and do an FET.  I started BCPs today.  We have to take an FET class (Ugh!  Enough with the classes!  I'm pretty sure I've injected, ingested, and inserted it all!) and then we'll get our calendar.  I can't get in to do the class until the first week of September because of my patient load, but c'est la vie.  I'm tired of feel stressed about rushing to get things in so I'm not going to do it.


When we were leaving the new RE's office, he told us that he doesn't see any reason why I can't be pregnant and fully expects that I will be as long as we keep trying.  That was good to hear.  Then J looked up and noticed that one of his diplomas matches one of mine.  I don't know how I missed that we shared an Alma mater.  I was sold.


We met with the financial person, who was awesome.  She had already called our insurance company to verify benefits and what we had left on our limits.  She handles so much more for us than our old clinic did.  Knowing that I wouldn't have to haggle for pre-auths made me want to cry.  Then she walked us over to embryology to talk frozen embryo transport.  

I emailed the new RE to tell him we were planning to go ahead with the new cycle and he answered me in a matter of minutes.  I about fell over.  I couldn't even leave a message for the old RE directly!  We could only leave a message for the nurse and keep our fingers crossed.  Heck, I called about moving our embies on Wednesday and STILL haven't gotten a call back.  I feel like I'm in high school, trying to break up with a slacker boyfriend, and he won't even call me back so I can end it!

As soon as the old clinic calls me back (!^#*^#@$%$@), we're going to move the embies ourselves.  I'm that type-A.  I wonder if I can make an "Embryos on Board" sign to put on my car.  Maybe a stick figure family with embryos on it?

We're moving forward... one step at a time.